Friday, November 18, 2011

Rebuilding Houses in New Orleans with Nuns

I'm just coming back from three amazing days--one of those experiences that changes you: seeing things you can't unsee, doing things you didn't know you could do and understanding a perspective very different from your own.

This week was Nun Build with St. Bernard Project in New Orleans.  Why in hell was I there?  My sister works for a bank and she specializes in loaning money to non-profit religious institutions.  Because of that, a lot of her clients are nuns.  She heard about this gathering of nuns to rebuild houses in New Orleans and wanted to go and invited me as well.  It just seemed to surreal to pass up!  There were over 90 women working on 14 different houses.  I could write for PAGES about the experience--but let me try to sum it up in shorter statements--little excerpts of my experience.
  • The biggest thing that I can say is that SIX years after Katrina, New Orleans is still in a world of hurt.  The signs of the devastation are everywhere.  If you take a standard block in a wide swath of town, 1/3 of the houses are gone--just empty lots, 1/3 of the houses are still standing but uninhabitable--with the markings still on them, boards on the windows and/or roofs caving in, and 1/3 of the houses are rebuilt.  But the new houses stand in the middle of the chaos surrounding them.  It looks like a big mess. 
  • We worked on a house that was 14 feet under water after Katrina.  So our job was to do mold remediation
    • First day--scraping every single wood frame with a wire brush to loosen up the mold.  Then applying a mold killer with a cloth onto every beam. 
    • Second Day--Applying Killz paint--a mold killer and sealer--to every beam (yes, if you're counting--we touched every single piece of wood in the house THREE times).
    • Third Day--Preparing the home to be fogged (final step to kill all mold) and hanging vinyl siding on the outside of the house.
Nuns Rock and Remove Mold (the second from the left is my sister Lynn--saintly, but not a nun).
  • While I have some issues with the Catholic religion, I've had only good experiences with nuns.  I've known a lot of progressive, motivated, loving women working on the biggest social justice issues of our days.  And these nuns were no different.  In fact, these women in their 50s and 60s worked their asses off and had enough left in them to drink beer and tour New Orleans afterwards.  They ROCKED.   
  • I stayed in Sister Helen Prejean's office--yes, the Sister Helen Prejean who wrote Dead Man Walking and who is one of the most outspoken voices against the Death Penalty. She was out of town for the week and let us stay on air mattresses in her office. 
  • We visited the Rebuild Center--a daytime shelter for the homeless men and women in New Orleans, which serves 250 men and women during the day, providing showers, laundry, legal services, and meals.  It is an award winning design for any space, but as a shelter, it provided respite, peace and dignity for people who desperately need it.  The men and women were very friendly and many of them told us how blessed they were to be in a place like that. 
  • We were provided lunches three days by groups like Knights of Columbus.  We were given dinner by humble residents of New Orleans as a way to show their gratitude.  It was very humbling to be served like that. 
  • We got to tour the homes of Brad Pitt's Make It Right Foundation.  They are committed to rebuilding green, sustainable homes in the Lower 9th ward most affected by Katrina.  This neighborhood was right next to the levy (which is actually just a concrete wall).  Almost every single house was destroyed and 1000 people died in that neighborhood.  The houses are interesting, but they weren't occupied by low income residents and they didn't fit in with the architecture of New Orleans.  They are very visible as you drive by and I have to admit, I'm torn by their presence. 
One of the Make It Right Houses we saw driving around.
  • On our last night, we went to Frenchman street to hear some real New Orleans jazz--not the French Quarter scene, but where the locals hang out.  And a total stranger asked me (and many others) to swing dance to the live band.  So cool (and I don't think I totally sucked--but I think I embarrassed my sister). 

So now what?  I return back to Orlando and my blessed life.  But I'm motivated and would like to motivate you:
  • PLEASE consider going to New Orleans--with your family, a church group, friends--and donate a day or a week building for St. Bernard's Project.  It is a SUPERBLY run organization making a real difference in an area that still needs it.
  • For Christmas, my friends and family will be getting notifications that their gift is my donation to St. Bernard's Project.  They'll be getting pictures of drills, bathtubs, 2x4s, work gloves and other items that they can use to bring more families home.  Don't they need that more than you need the next new gadget?
  • I'll be collecting shampoos, soaps, toothbrushes, etc every time I stay in a hotel and will be sending them to the the Rebuild Center.  They provide hundreds of showers a day and it's the least I can do.  If you collect them and bring them to me, I'll send them on for you as well.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Reflections on Coming Out


So, I'm picking this blog thing back up. I'm thinking of doing another blog or just doing this one under the radar for a little bit and see if it sticks.

Last Thursday, I "came out." As a bunch of things:

  • A divorced woman
  • An apartment dweller
  • A woman in therapy
  • NOT a republican
  • A bi-sexual

Ironically, the most important part of this was coming out as a divorced person to my Facebook friends--as I hadn't mentioned it since I left. I just was tired about NOT mentioning things related to all that on FB. It became ridiculous.

I really thought that the world might implode when I pushed "Publish" but, remarkably, it didn't. Instead I got comments of love and support that would reduce any person to extreme humility. And I know the last part of my coming out was more important to some, but for me it was the bigger story--it was just about being myself, whatever that means. About putting myself out there and seeing if I was still loved. And what I'm finding is that I'm loved more, not less, for embracing that full humanity.

Here's the link to my post.



Saturday, March 21, 2009

The Week After

So, the triathlon was a week ago and I stayed on a high for a few days. It was just this amazing feeling of going after something that you didn't think you could do and then doing it.

Unfortunately (and fortunately, since that's how I make money), I had a project last week and I got totally immersed in that. But I got to talk about it every once in awhile and felt that proud rush all over again.

I was also pleased at the support that came to me for my Nepal trip. I've gotten some checks already and I'm hoping that others who promised they would give actually do. I've got $500. I have no idea how I'm going to get to $10,000. I'm really going to have to change some ways of doing things for that.

This morning, Robb and I rode 15 miles. A delightful, fun ride full of conversation and beautiful weather. It was my first ride since the tri. There is a real difference in my attitude. In training before, I was thinking about "can I do it?" or "what will it be like." For this ride, I'm planning and strategizing about how I can do it better. I'm totally hooked.

And, even better, Robb is committed to doing one in July. We'll be the big, fat triathlon family. Awesome!

Monday, March 16, 2009

The AfterGlow


I'm trying to be humble. I'm trying to move onto other things. But I just can't. I'm just pleased as punch with myself. I did a Triathlon. I did something that impresses the heck out of me! I set a really big goal and I made it.

I go into project tomorrow and I know I'll get sucked into the world of work and fast food (the topic this week), but for now, I'm just enjoying every minute.

I'm not too terribly sore which, to me, means that I trained well. And I had to fight the urge to want to bike ride today, which means that I either love it or am nuts.

I want to wear my medal and shout out to the whole world what I've done. I want them to look at me, my big thighs and butt and go "really?!" I want to tell everyone in the world that they can do anything that they set their mind to. If I can do this, they can do anything.

And when I thought I could be no more impressed with myself, I got my times.

Swim-10:55. Seriously? I did 11 minutes in the pool. Not doing mostly breast stroke. And not with 100 other people. Under 11 minutes is nuts.

Transition 1-9:41. Yeah, that's pitiful. I need work there. I added 2 minutes helping Kyle. But if the time that I'm most disappointed about is T1, I'll live with that.

Bike-48.26. Again, I'm very happy with that. I thought I was going fast, but that is an average of 15 mph, almost 2mph faster than my fastest training time. Wow!

Transition 2--2.19. I'm ok with that in my first race. Kyle did it in 52 seconds. That's a transition.

Run-34.56. I normally run a 15 minute mile. For those of you who run, you should be rolling on the floor laughing right now. Many people can walk that fast. But for 2.75 miles, that means I did 12.5 minute mile! I've NEVER run that fast.

Total--1:46. I was hoping for under 2 hours. I got it. By a lot. I really am so happy with those times.

Kyle's times:
Swim-11:43. He struggled with it he said, and floated on his back for some. But still, that is an impressive time. Before the race we said that anything under 15 minutes was a win!

Transition 1-- 11:34. Yeah. Oops. Oh well.

Bike 56:45. This is a great time considering that he had just done his first full 12 mile bike 3 days before. AND, he stopped to help a fellow racer.

Trans :52 (impressive)

Run 33:11 His 5Ks have been averaging around 13 min/mile. This was 12 min/mile. Again, darned impressive.

Total 1:54. Under 2 hours, baby!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

The Wildman Triathlon--March 14th, 2009




"If God invented marathons to keep people from doing anything more stupid, the triathlon must have taken Him completely by surprise." ~P.Z. Pearce
The alarm went off at 4:45. That's just insane. But we had to get up, have breakfast (what to eat? Someone said to eat what we normally have for breakfast. I don't know if that is the best approach. Something to ask Scott), get the bikes loaded and get out the door by 5:30.
Our bags were packed the night before with a long check-list of what to remember. But I was paranoid that I'd forgotten something.
The complete darkness of the morning took me by surprise. I was quite intimidated by it. We drove into the park and saw triathletes walking their bikes around and getting marked. We parked far away and walked towards the big lights, hoping we were going the right way. We ended up coming in the back entrance and missed where they were marking everyone.
We found our spot and started setting up. That is when we realized that we were way out of our league. We saw people laying out towels. Getting little pans of water to wash off their feet. Laying out their shoes. We saw someone "practicing" taking his socks off and on quickly. Us? I had a backpack with stuff. Kyle had his shoved in bags. We had practiced transitions but we had no idea how that would translate when you have 18 square inches of space next to your bike. We rigged up the best system we could figure out and reassured each other we'd be fine. We met a really nice guy who made us feel welcome and a real snob who made us feel stupid.
I was SO glad I was doing this with Kyle. We were figuring this out together. Talking to keep each other sane. Planning our strategy (if you can call it that). At one point, he turned to me and said "Thanks for getting me into this, Mom). For me, that was the highlight. It was his expression of love and gratitude, in his own 13-year-old way.
We were participating in the "My First Triathlon"--a special race especially for people like us. The only difference was that we had a shorter run (1/4 mile instead of 1/2 mile), a purple wristband to identify us as first timers and we got a medal (along with the kids).
Because of the My First Tri, we were waves three and four of the race--green and orange caps respectively. Luckily, the water was warm. But it was also the color of iced tea due to the tanic of the leaves around the lake. And as a result, it had a visibility of about 2 inches!
Robb, Eric and my good friend and "coach", Deb Costello, were there to cheer us on. I got big smooches from Robb. Eric made me promise I wouldn't die. And Deb gave me the advice to "enjoy the journey." Just the words I needed to help me with perspective. I realized that one year ago, I tried to run. I tried to just run around the block. I had to stop five times. And I had to stop five times for the next several weeks. Then I only had to stop three times. And by May, I could do it without stopping. Then in June I went a mile and a half. And in September I decided to do a Triathlon. Just ONE YEAR LATER, I was doing this. No minor accomplishment. It is that--the journey of this last year--that makes me so proud. Not that I was getting ready to start a triathlon. It was more that I could be considering it at all.
Meeting at the beach at 7:45. Waves 1 and 2 went off around 8 and 8:05. Then they moved in buoys for the shorter swim for us. The first men for the half mile were coming out before we even went INTO the water. Total studs.
Kyle went in first and my heart sunk. That was my baby. And I lost sight of him pretty quickly. I hoped he was okay and wasn't scared.




5, 4, 3, 2, 1 and my wave was off. As Deb coached, I counted "one, two, three" and let the others go first. Then I dove in. Arms, legs, torsos everywhere. Scott had said that the beginning is like swimming in a washing machine. Exactly. And I couldn't see the legs getting ready to kick me.
Quickly I realized that my training in the pool wasn't sufficient. I was doing freestyle. While my opposite-side breathing was automatic, when I turned my head for a breath, my mouth was still in water. I needed to lift it up to the side about 15 degrees more. I also was constantly looking up to see where the buoy was. After a couple of mouthfuls of water and straining my neck, it was easier to go to breast stroke. I tried to go back to freestyle after an interval, but it was exhausting.
I felt like I was going SO SLOWLY, but I was passing swimmers, even some of the men from the previous wave. And I couldn't worry about the time, I could just swim. I was on the way back to shore when I saw Kyle get out of the water and could relax a little. I was glad I knew where he was.
I stood up when I could touch the ground and ran out of the water, astonished at how tired my legs were (I NOW know that was a mistake as that made my legs more tired). Eric gave me my sandals, Deb told me that Kyle was about 2 minutes ahead of me and Robb took pictures. I tried to run to the transition area, but my legs were HEAVY!



Made it to the transition area. Kyle was sitting there getting all his gear on. He was using someone else's bucket to wash off his feet. I just pulled my sandals off and threw on my socks and shoes. I had given Eric a towel at the beach, but forgot to get it when I got out of the water. Oh well. I was ready to go, but Kyle was still struggling. He almost forgot his glasses. Then he got sand on them. I stopped and helped him out, finding something dry to clean them off for him. He told me to go, but I stayed and helped him. We came out of transition together. He had a mountain bike so started riding it and got yelled at. Me, my water bottle came out of the holder and I didn't notice until I was about to get on the bike. At which point I swore. Luckily, a guy came running up with it.

I asked Kyle if he wanted me to ride with him and he told me to go ahead and I did. I LOVE the bike ride. It's spiritual for me. Beautiful lake houses made the time go quickly. I tried to remember to hydrate. Made sure I watched for signs for turning. And I ate my jelly beans that were my tastier alternative to those icky gels for carb energy. I have to come up with another system for opening and eating those. Tricky to do while keeping your hands on the bike....
But mostly, I kept looking for places where I could check on Kyle. Towards the end, we had a long strip where we went down and came back--almost two miles. I was sure I'd see him. Surely he couldn't be THAT far behind me....but I didn't. When we came out, they were signalling for me to turn, but I stopped to wait for him. He was coming down the road. He yelled that he had stopped for someone who crashed. He was fine. I was relieved and could let the mother side of me go and continue as the cyclist.
I thought I was making good time, but I had no idea. My only way of keeping track of times and distances was through my iPhone, which I wasn't allowed to bring. I had no idea how much further I had to go and what my speed was. But I remember at one point thinking that I should think about backing off the speed because my legs would get too tired for the run.
Got back to the transition area and yelled to my cheering section that Kyle was about two miles behind. In transition, got my running shoes and my number. I also grabbed a bottle of water, because I was used to running with my water belt, which I had given to Kyle. Carrying the bottle was a mistake. Just a little water bottle, but it felt heavy.
My legs were lead. Dead weights. I got nervous. But just kept reminding myself to just run. Don't think. I actually don't remember much about that part of the race at all. After the first quarter mile or so, I started to feel like a normal run. At one point, there was a sign to go to the right, but some were going straight. I decided to follow the sign but found out that many had skipped the whole loop (including the woman who placed just ahead of me). The run was pretty--through the group camping area where there was a Boy Scout Jamboree. Through a NJROTC campout where teens were giving backrubs to each other (yeah, I know what that was about). Through the family camping area where I could see the tents, campers. Decided that I wanted to camp there. Some of the campers were triathletes who were already done and back at the site. Jerks.
I never stopped running, except for four steps at the second water stop because I had almost choked while trying to drink while running at the first. I knew that if I stopped, I wouldn't be able to start again. My other big sensation was the need to go to the bathroom. I thought of stopping at the camp bathroom, but that would take too much time. At the end of the run, I met Jane. She would walk a little, fall behind me then run a little and catch up. I also met a guy who was in his second Leukemia remission and way overweight, but there he was doing a triathlon. Impressive.
I heard cheering in the distance. I was CONVINCED that it was after 10:30 and that the awards ceremony had already started. So I was startled to get close to the finish and see everyone there. Every little bit of energy came out to run down the chute to the finish line. I raised my arms for the picture. Robb was there at the end with a hug, but I was even more glad to see the cold bottle of water, which I chugged. I barely noticed them taking off my transponder and handing me a medal (what about putting it around my neck, dudes?).

Then I just started rambling to Deb and Robb--about every little detail. About what surprised me. And how hard it was. I kept talking and talking. I forgot to turn around and wait for Kyle. Finally Robb said he was coming. There came my baby, lumbering down the chute, looking exhausted. He recovered, realized that there was pizza over at the pavilion and went over and ate FOUR PIECES (oh to be 13 with that metabolism).


I kept processing, we hung out, said goodbye to Robb who was off to a rocket launch and to Deb who was off to teach a seminar. We watched a little of the awards ceremony but then decided to head out. Kyle and I went over to the transition area to collect our mess of stuff. We loaded the bikes onto the truck. And just as I was closing the car door, I heard over the loud speaker "Kyle Haskins." He won an award. You've never seen two people who were so tired book our way over to the pavilion! He got first in his age group! And got a plaque. He was STOKED! That little plaque was just the killer touch. His mom had toasted his time but he got a plaque.
We headed to IHOP, his idea. He had FIVE pancakes (again that metabolism) and headed home. During lunch, Kyle said "That was the hardest thing I've ever done." He also said that he needed to train more. While I had trained 4-6 days a week, he barely did 1-2...and he knew that it showed. But he also started immediately talking about doing another one very soon. Surprisingly, so did Robb. It really inspired him. He swam as a kid. And he bikes almost everyday. He just needs to get running. But he got really excited about it.
We got home by 1pm. Barely afternoon. But we had accomplished more in that morning than anyone else we knew. We were sore. We were tired. We were triumphant.

Preparing for the Triathlon

I'm going to do this in three installments--because I want to remember all of it. What an amazing weekend. I'll have other triathlons. But none of them will be the first.

Let's start with the weekend before the race. Kyle and I wanted to do a pseudo-triathlon to make sure we could do it. We did the swim, drove home quickly and did our transition into the bike. But we had just gotten our bikes back from the shop. Mine had a clicking noise (later found out it was just in another gear). I stopped to check it out. Kyle stopped to see if I was okay and squeezed his newly tuned brakes--they were much tighter and his front wheel STOPPED and he flew over the handlebars and landed on the street--scrapped and bloody. Of course, he didn't go further, but after getting him settled with ice and pain relievers, I continued.

No problem with the ride, but by the time of the run, it had been 5 hours since I had eaten and it was the heat of noon. I couldn't do the whole run. I was spent. Done. Crap. It was then that I was worried about the race. Could I really do it?

But that week, I got a strong week of workouts. Two strong swims, some light strength training, and a couple good runs. After Thursday's swim, I was done. No more workouts till the race.

On Friday, I checked Kyle out of school early and we went to pick up our packets. They had a "webinar" on Wednesday where they went through the rules, how everything was going to work, etc. But they were also doing a course walk-through at 3pm on Friday and we wanted to see that. We asked all the silly questions like "how do you put the bike on the rail without a kickstand?" "how does the transponder work?" "are there alligators in the lake?" (the answer was yes!). But we got to see where we went in and out and got a strategy for the long walk between the lake and the transition area (Kyle's strategy--run barefoot; my strategy--give sandals to Robb).

The highlight of the day? Someone asked where the spectators could go. They said "Only athletes are allowed in the transition area." I looked at Kyle and whispered, "I think they just called us 'athletes.'" I've never been called an athlete. Excellent.

Carb loading at Macaroni Grill with the family and Kailey. Then early to bed with hopes of sleeping....

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Triathlon for Bandipur!


I want to tell you all a story. Until recently, I never considered myself an athlete. I was the one struggling for the 100 yard dash, who would role her ankle just playing tennis and huffed and puffed when doing anything physical.

That has changed for me recently. What made me change? A sappy Nike commercial and wishing for a trip to Nepal. It is the trip to Nepal I want to tell you about…and ask for your help.

Several years ago my friend Jeannie went on a trip to the small town of Bandipur, Nepal. Since then she has raised money for plumbing for their school and a new home for an elderly couple who were walking two hours to and from work every day. I’ve dreamt of going with her, but there was one big obstacle—the trip requires a long walk up a mountain and I was out of shape.

So last year around this time, I started running. My goal was to run a mile without stopping. It took me over two months. In May of last year, I ran a whole mile. In November, I ran my first 5K. In just two weeks, March 14—just a year after I started on this journey--I’m doing my first triathlon.

For some of you, this may be no big deal. But for those who know me well, I’m not a petite woman. This is a very big deal for me. And I’m doing it as a means to an end—to get in shape so I can get up that mountain in Nepal.
But here’s the next challenge. I don’t want to go to Nepal empty handed. So, I set another very ambitious goal. I want to raise $10,000 to take to the town of Bandipur to help them buy books, supplies and provide better structures for their schools. My goal is to raise it in time to go this coming November.

This is where I need your help. If everyone who reads this note sends me $15, then I can raise $10,000! And to what other organization can you donate where you know the person who is actually making sure it goes where it is supposed to go?

So just reply and let me know that you’re in right now. I’ll find you and remind you to send it when it is convenient for you. And no guilt if you can’t do it--I totally understand.

Thank you. And if you’ve ever doubted about the power of goals and dreams, then let me remind you that anything is possible.